Everyone has their quirks, granted some may be more tiring than others. That being said, sometimes we need to evaluate them and our lives.
People can have good quirks that make us who we are, and we can have quirks that possibly make some of us harder people to be around. Sometimes we have a mixture of both. I believe that if we want to improve the quality of our lives and the quality of the friends we have, we need to begin inside – with our quirks.
I started noticing that friends would want to hang out with me less, that people liked me less, that people wouldn’t help me with favors, and that – when I gripped on tighter – they would pull away more.
Why was this? I asked myself. What had I done?
After, months of this, I’d finally had an epiphany. Not a good one, an honest one. People were growing tired of my attitude, my state of mind, my neediness, and my negativity. I’d been an energy vampire, and no one wants to be around that.
I decided that if I want to fix my friendships, then I need to fix me.
A big problem with my friendships, I’ve noticed, is my negativity. Negativity can be really annoying and it can drain the people around you. No one wants to be around someone negative, so why should I be that someone? I need to change. I can’t say I’m depressed, and I can’t say I’m not. Either way, I won’t use that as a scapegoat; I need to hold myself accountable around my friends. They are my friends, not my therapists.
My first move toward being positive, will be to remove the negative things in my life, at least as many as I can, step by step.
How I go about this is not certain to me yet. What I start with is also not very clear. All I know is that, for now, I can fake it till I make it.